I'm beginning to think I'm never going to get on a regular schedule. A couple of days ago I announced that I was tired and going to bed - It was 9:30pm. By 10:01pm I was in bed nursing Peanut for the last time. My head hit the pillow by 10:28pm and I was out cold.....
11:45pm Peanut woke up dying for some more food. She pretty much fell asleep during the 10pm feeding and didn't get much. I felt guilty so I woke up and fed her again. She got her second wind and kept me up until 1:30am.
Lights out....
3:30am she's up again. This time I didn't feel sorry for her so I just held her and burped her (she can hold in those burps for a long time). One very large baby burp later... she starts "talking" and laughing and kicking like she's saying "Let's go mom! I'm done sleeping".
It was a LOOONNNNGGGG night for me and I felt more sleep deprived then when I stay up until 3,4 or 5am then get one small chunk of sleep that is at least 3 hours long.
Then last night....
I fell asleep with her at 8:30pm (I have been avoiding naps so I can get on a more normal schedule) and woke up around midnight. I was UP and ready to go. Didn't get to sleep again until 5:30am.
BTW... Thanks Annette for the Harry Potter book. I read the first 6 chapters the first night. I'm up to the part where Harry just got back from being chased around Hogwarts in the middle of the night from the "wizard's challenge" from Malfoy (that didn't happen). Get book 2 ready. I'll be needing it soon.
When I started writing this Peanut was kicking around my lap and having a GREAT time. She's such a stinker! Now she's looking like she's finally ready to go to bed. It's now a little after 3am.
Wish me luck!
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
Typical night for me
Ever wonder what other people do every day? Wish you could be a fly on the wall? Well now's your chance! This is a typical night at our house.....
(FYI - I don't list hubby here because nothing's typical with him. Some nights he's in bed -or at least asleep on a chair shortly after putting the kids to bed... some nights he isn't home - at a client's office working.... other nights he's in his home office working on the computer all night. I just chose to leave him out since I never know where he's going to be)
Our kids are supposed to go to bed around 8pm.. HA! It's typically closer to 9pm.
(Please tell me I'm not the only one slacking in bedtime strictness)
(Almost) everyone FINALLY gets to sleep so I can have some "ME time". There is one "little" problem and she can be quite random.
Yes! When the older kids go to sleep Peanut decides it's "me time" for HER and she gains her second wind.
She will try to trick me by pretending to sleep for an hour. Then she wakes up and is ready to go agin for several hours.
At some point... between 3am and 4:30am she finally runs out of steam.
I check on the rest of the kids...
Tinkerbell decides to sleep with Jabberbox for the night. (Weekends mean we get to play musical beds.... never know who will be in who's bed).
One of our kitties (Appa) keeps a nightly vigil with Power Ranger. He may appear asleep but he perks up at the slightest noise of someone entering the room. Good watch cat.
Dragon Girl has been sick all week. Fevers around 104. She's finally better and sleeping peacefully.
After a full tummy, a good several hours of "bat the toy" and checking in on everyone, Peanut falls asleep and I take her upstairs (I had to turn around on the stairs so we weren't backlit - I'm really heading UP the stairs).
I stop off to close windows around the house and pass by our "grandpa" kitty Narcissus. He's curled up on one of our sofas.
FINALLY I get to our bedroom. Lay Peanut in her bed and head for my current read...
(The book lives between the burprags and wipies)
EARLY the next morning I get to wake up to this beautiful face...
.... and do it all over again.
I LOVE being a MOM!!!!
(FYI - I don't list hubby here because nothing's typical with him. Some nights he's in bed -or at least asleep on a chair shortly after putting the kids to bed... some nights he isn't home - at a client's office working.... other nights he's in his home office working on the computer all night. I just chose to leave him out since I never know where he's going to be)
Our kids are supposed to go to bed around 8pm.. HA! It's typically closer to 9pm.
(Please tell me I'm not the only one slacking in bedtime strictness)
(Almost) everyone FINALLY gets to sleep so I can have some "ME time". There is one "little" problem and she can be quite random.
Yes! When the older kids go to sleep Peanut decides it's "me time" for HER and she gains her second wind.
She will try to trick me by pretending to sleep for an hour. Then she wakes up and is ready to go agin for several hours.
At some point... between 3am and 4:30am she finally runs out of steam.
I check on the rest of the kids...
Tinkerbell decides to sleep with Jabberbox for the night. (Weekends mean we get to play musical beds.... never know who will be in who's bed).
One of our kitties (Appa) keeps a nightly vigil with Power Ranger. He may appear asleep but he perks up at the slightest noise of someone entering the room. Good watch cat.
Dragon Girl has been sick all week. Fevers around 104. She's finally better and sleeping peacefully.
After a full tummy, a good several hours of "bat the toy" and checking in on everyone, Peanut falls asleep and I take her upstairs (I had to turn around on the stairs so we weren't backlit - I'm really heading UP the stairs).
I stop off to close windows around the house and pass by our "grandpa" kitty Narcissus. He's curled up on one of our sofas.
FINALLY I get to our bedroom. Lay Peanut in her bed and head for my current read...
(The book lives between the burprags and wipies)
EARLY the next morning I get to wake up to this beautiful face...
.... and do it all over again.
I LOVE being a MOM!!!!
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Blue Ribbon
Neat video to watch. I know it's all staged but the concept is still neat.
http://www.makeadifferencemember.com/idevaffiliate.php?id=554_2
http://www.makeadifferencemember.com/idevaffiliate.php?id=554_2
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
$ and Poor Health
I haven't updated any posts here because I don't like posting negative thoughts.... Well... that's all I have still to post about.
My husband has something wrong with his general health. We don't know what it is. It has caused him a LOT of problems since he was about 7 years old. When everything is working right he looks and acts like a "regular person". Nothing out of the ordinary. When he's having an "episode" all hell breaks loose. His body language is the first thing I notice. He gets a snarl, body tenses up, clenches fists, scowls, his eyes roll back and he has nystagmus (his eyes flip in a "W" as well as side to side), he can't focus on anything, gets cranky easy, can't drive, can't walk without running into something part of the time (runs into a lot of walls and doorways).
We and his parents have spent thousands on him over the years trying to get some doc to figure him out. I HATE DOCTORS!!!!! Time after time we go in (spending $150 -$200) for 10 minutes of THEIR time (after about an hour wait in their waiting room) and all they do is interrupt and say "you know a lot more about this than I do" "sorry I can't help you" "do you want some anti-depressants?" Don't you think THEY should PAY US??? If we're giving them new knowledge why are WE paying THEM?
We don't have health insurance (had to drop it years ago). Can't afford it. Because my husband's health is so crappy he works about part time. Lately his health has been sooooo bad that he's not working even that much. He has work to do (thank goodness) but he can't focus enough to get it done. I don't know enough about Final Cut or Adobe After Effects to do the projects for him - otherwise I would. Perhaps he needs to seriously teach me so I can do the projects for him when he gets like this. The company he mainly works for (freelance) is MONTHS behind in paying. He has to threaten them by holding footage hostage in order to get paid. Didn't use to be this way. We have to take being treated this way since no one else wants to hire hubby. He's SUPER talented (when he's sane) but he CAN'T make most deadlines. He has a great portfolio.
He can't take care of the kids when he's not feeling well. He can barely take care of himself. He has been getting noticeably WORSE recently. Only able to function a handful of days in a month's time. We think he is on to the solution to some of his health problems but we need more $ to do more testing. It's a double edged sword. We can't test without $ but we can't get $ because he's too sick to work.
In the meantime... utilities keep getting shut off. When they get turned back on we get hit with a turn back on fee. Late fees on our mortgage... as if being broke isn't hard enough as it is... they want more money where there is NONE. Believe me... I WOULD PAY ONTIME IF I HAD THE $$.
I sent a letter in to Dr. Oz on Oprah's website BEGGING Dr. Oz for help. I don't know if anything will come of it. My hubby is willing to share his illness with the nation if it means he gets to see a doc for free and get diagnosed finally. (If you know him you know what a HUGE deal that is - hubby has always kept his health problems as private as possible)
We're as broke as we can get... we're down to 2 diapers in the house and we have 3 kids still in diapers. Our baby has 1 diaper... and Tinkerbell and Power Ranger have to flip a coin on who gets the other one. I want to scream... cry.... give up.
Whenever we do get money it's GONE! We owe soo many people soo much $ and have soo many late fees on top of it we might get to look at the $ for a second before it gets sucked away.
I'm tired of being a liability.....
I started up a new clothing and stuff store on Zazzle last night... I'll get the link to it up soon. I'm going to make this blog public (I never wanted to do that) in hopes that my Zazzle site will get some attention (through advertising it here). I need a job that I can do from home. Can't babysit since I would not feel comfortable having someone else's child here when hubby is not doing well. (he gets cranky when over stimulated - noise etc.) I don't feel comfortable having him here alone for very long when he's having an episode. I'm not sure what he would do if left alone all the time. The Zazzle site would NOT bring in very much unless it suddenly became super popular (not likely) and even then... it would take forever to gain that kind of popularity. I'm just hoping for some sort of additional income.. somewhere.
We don't want handouts.. we want to work and earn what we bring in... desperately need hubby to get his health under control. Wish we could find the right project to fit hubby's ability to work and match his skills.
If anyone needed a miracle... we do ..... NOW!!! Thankfully Prayers are FREE!
UPDATE: Hubby was able to get one client to cough up a bit of $ from some work hubby completed about 4 or 5 years ago. Enough to buy those very needed diapers. YaY! Whew!!! This client is so stingy it's like getting blood from a rock.
My husband has something wrong with his general health. We don't know what it is. It has caused him a LOT of problems since he was about 7 years old. When everything is working right he looks and acts like a "regular person". Nothing out of the ordinary. When he's having an "episode" all hell breaks loose. His body language is the first thing I notice. He gets a snarl, body tenses up, clenches fists, scowls, his eyes roll back and he has nystagmus (his eyes flip in a "W" as well as side to side), he can't focus on anything, gets cranky easy, can't drive, can't walk without running into something part of the time (runs into a lot of walls and doorways).
We and his parents have spent thousands on him over the years trying to get some doc to figure him out. I HATE DOCTORS!!!!! Time after time we go in (spending $150 -$200) for 10 minutes of THEIR time (after about an hour wait in their waiting room) and all they do is interrupt and say "you know a lot more about this than I do" "sorry I can't help you" "do you want some anti-depressants?" Don't you think THEY should PAY US??? If we're giving them new knowledge why are WE paying THEM?
We don't have health insurance (had to drop it years ago). Can't afford it. Because my husband's health is so crappy he works about part time. Lately his health has been sooooo bad that he's not working even that much. He has work to do (thank goodness) but he can't focus enough to get it done. I don't know enough about Final Cut or Adobe After Effects to do the projects for him - otherwise I would. Perhaps he needs to seriously teach me so I can do the projects for him when he gets like this. The company he mainly works for (freelance) is MONTHS behind in paying. He has to threaten them by holding footage hostage in order to get paid. Didn't use to be this way. We have to take being treated this way since no one else wants to hire hubby. He's SUPER talented (when he's sane) but he CAN'T make most deadlines. He has a great portfolio.
He can't take care of the kids when he's not feeling well. He can barely take care of himself. He has been getting noticeably WORSE recently. Only able to function a handful of days in a month's time. We think he is on to the solution to some of his health problems but we need more $ to do more testing. It's a double edged sword. We can't test without $ but we can't get $ because he's too sick to work.
In the meantime... utilities keep getting shut off. When they get turned back on we get hit with a turn back on fee. Late fees on our mortgage... as if being broke isn't hard enough as it is... they want more money where there is NONE. Believe me... I WOULD PAY ONTIME IF I HAD THE $$.
I sent a letter in to Dr. Oz on Oprah's website BEGGING Dr. Oz for help. I don't know if anything will come of it. My hubby is willing to share his illness with the nation if it means he gets to see a doc for free and get diagnosed finally. (If you know him you know what a HUGE deal that is - hubby has always kept his health problems as private as possible)
We're as broke as we can get... we're down to 2 diapers in the house and we have 3 kids still in diapers. Our baby has 1 diaper... and Tinkerbell and Power Ranger have to flip a coin on who gets the other one. I want to scream... cry.... give up.
Whenever we do get money it's GONE! We owe soo many people soo much $ and have soo many late fees on top of it we might get to look at the $ for a second before it gets sucked away.
I'm tired of being a liability.....
I started up a new clothing and stuff store on Zazzle last night... I'll get the link to it up soon. I'm going to make this blog public (I never wanted to do that) in hopes that my Zazzle site will get some attention (through advertising it here). I need a job that I can do from home. Can't babysit since I would not feel comfortable having someone else's child here when hubby is not doing well. (he gets cranky when over stimulated - noise etc.) I don't feel comfortable having him here alone for very long when he's having an episode. I'm not sure what he would do if left alone all the time. The Zazzle site would NOT bring in very much unless it suddenly became super popular (not likely) and even then... it would take forever to gain that kind of popularity. I'm just hoping for some sort of additional income.. somewhere.
We don't want handouts.. we want to work and earn what we bring in... desperately need hubby to get his health under control. Wish we could find the right project to fit hubby's ability to work and match his skills.
If anyone needed a miracle... we do ..... NOW!!! Thankfully Prayers are FREE!
UPDATE: Hubby was able to get one client to cough up a bit of $ from some work hubby completed about 4 or 5 years ago. Enough to buy those very needed diapers. YaY! Whew!!! This client is so stingy it's like getting blood from a rock.
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